Wednesday, August 31, 2005 / 10:25 PM
it gets better, at least for now. my roommate introduced me to some cool people. she and i went to HUHOT tonight! yummeh. then we went to hot topic and hung out with the cool people. then i went home with two guys. they wrote crap on my pinkboard door thing. now it's cool. and she got two mice...:) dunno if those are allowed in the dorms but who cares. we went into miller hall to find somebody today...and it's really creepy. really narrow halls with a tall ceiling and doors. see ryan agrees with me that we're surrounded by preps. he lives in my dorm. i wonder if it's just ours. doubt it.today when i went to take a shower, during the whole time there was this girl doing her makeup and spraying tons of hair spray in her hair. guess what time that was...9:30 PM!!!! why the fuck???!!!! i don't...get..it...
wanna hear some really stupid conversations i've overheard so far?
3:00 am in hallway:
guy voice talking on cell phone: russ? i'm not joking, come to craig 325! there's this girl who wants it!
a couple days later, in room 325:
girl talking to her room mate: oh my god, you have to see our room! it's like, such a mess! oh my god! i was like, so drunk last night i didn't know what i was doing!! teeheeheeheeeeeheheheheeee!
*someone brings someone something in the room across from us*
chick voice: *gasp* oh my god, that is like so cool! *girly gasp* oh my god! *girly gasp* you shouldn't have done that for me, like oh my god! *girly gasp* oh my god, thank you so much!!! *girly gasp* oh..my...god!!!
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005 / 2:33 PM
i didn't go because i'm afraid i won't have a parking space when i get back. there were around 5-10 cars circling around trying to find a space when i went out there. no way am i giving mine up. i'm tired as all hell.0 comments
Monday, August 29, 2005 / 9:21 PM
i don't know where to start. the only part i like about this place is the actual school. the teachers aren't all full of bullshit like the high school ones. they actually teach. i also like the fact that i'm in missoula even though i don't know where anything is. even though i've visited here since i was two. it's just that every street looks the same to me. tomorrow i'm going to attempt to drive to the mall. just to say that i did. just because i have 4 hours of nothing between classes. yay broken sentences. i was supposed to work but that's a different story. see i don't even work at the place she said i was. now i work at the cascade country store. different story. stupid different story. yay more broken sentences.so...that's the 'good' part. the only cool person i've met so far is my roommate, and boy am i glad she's my roommate. all the rest i've seen on my floor/wing are preps. if i ever reference them again they'll be known as the omygod factor. i swear all of them can say oh my god at least fifteen times per minute. oh my god. they blast country and rap music. they sit in bed with the door wide open and a towel on their head staring at the television...ALL.FUCKING.DAY.
well my roommate seems to be miss wonderwoman. she knows how to do everything. she can get around town without looking at a map already, and SHE'S FROM OREGON! i feel really...really pathetic right now. oh and to top it off...she got a full scholarship. bitchslap in the face.
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Thursday, August 25, 2005 / 10:16 PM
the day after tomorrow. how does that feel? it feels weird. it feels like my family is abandoning me on a small island infested with humans. it feels like time will be at a standstill until i return home, and then i will wonder why things have changed. it will give me a new sense of freedom. and confusion. there is a book of little bead animals that roo let me borrow, and i made two little goldfish. one is orange and the other is blue and green with a long tail like a betta. i should put them on my dorm wall as remembrances of this summer. not the greatest summer, but a summer nevertheless. high school is over. i got a real job. we're all a little tougher and closer than we were before. we aren't breaking up, this is only the start. one thing i've learned, even if i did stay in one place people still leave. missoula has its advantages. i'll be closer to my cousins, grandparents, aunt and uncle. and i'll come visit polson whenever i can.wednesday was my last day of being an extremejanitor. jen is moving to hamilton. that's probably the last time i'll see her. did the usual. decided it was the perfect day to get my ears redone (but not the cartilage this time...that just doesn't work) lots of reasons for that. just read the first paragraph. and i also got blue for sapphire because it's my birthstone, my 19th's in 2 weeks, and it reminds me of green day (you know..that song). and it's really weird. i can sleep on them. they aren't beet red like the cartilage piercing was for FOUR MONTHS STRAIGHT. it doesn't hurt when i bump them but i still cringe because i'm paranoid. i think this is going to work this time. so then we tried going to this supposed crop circle in kalispell that sandra and lawrence told us about...but it was all harvested and stuff...and then we went to see roo because it was her birthday...and we ate pizza and had a mini wonka experience. go ahead and ask.
and all i did was work for lawrence for 8 hours. we're cleaning up his hard drive by categorizing all his pictures and putting them all on cds. we messed with his pictures of the crop circles that he had taken on the 22nd and there were some cool looking orbs and weird stuff in them...not sure if they're 'real' but they're interesting anyway. i burned us a copy. sandra did another kirlian picture after wearing my ankh for four months (yay no one knows what i'm talking about!!) and she said there was a really big improvement. goodbye....go away...
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005 / 3:10 PM
three more days. last day of work tomorrow, the day after that is the last day of work for my other job. yesterday we went to walmart and bought a crapload of crap for college. detergent, shampoo, etcetc... then we went to roo's. her dad said roo could live with my family this year because roo has no way of getting to polson this year and she doesn't want to go to ronan. we watched warped tour. boy do they have a lot of crap on there. but green day played warped tour back in '00 so they played WMUWSE, and boy is it sad. i'm going to cry every time i hear that song now. marshall ALMOST did that to me. i'm so glad that no one i know is one of bush's servants to do his evil bidding. that's just about the main message of american idiot. other than the whole suburbia plot. i wonder how many more videos they're going to make on that cd, because so far it's telling the story. and the end of holiday/beginning of BoBD run together with the car driving. that would be sweet if they made videos for the whole cd. we made window stickers out of fabric paint. and tried to go to a bunch of restaurants but we either didn't know where they were or they were closed. so we ended up buying a bunch of ramen at safeway and then driving all the way to ronan again...har. eui is forced to go back to hamilton...barf!they say home is where your heart is but what a shame,
cause everyone's heart doesn't beat the same...
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Sunday, August 21, 2005 / 4:49 PM
well kids...i leave in less than a week.i started packing today. emptying out my backpack is depressing because it's full of SCHoOl crap. also sitting right in front of me is a letter that i cried for two days over. i read the first half page and couldn't read the rest. i'm kind of blank minded right now.
aunt diane is here with my grandparents.
i just now noticed that my student planner is full of jthm and gir pictures, as well as bunnies and kitties in all different stylizations. i don't even like bunnies that much. i guess they're easy to draw.
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Saturday, August 20, 2005 / 9:42 PM
isn't it weird how all my friends split up as soon as i skip town? happens every time.don't blame me though.
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Friday, August 19, 2005 / 11:33 PM
i worked for 10.5 hours today! 10-5 at the shelter (worst day ever, 21 dogs, took 2 to the vet then 2 more came in so we had to take one more to the vet, scrub out most the kennels by myself including the ones outside, chasing retarded dogs around who won't get in their damn kennel, etc) then came home for an hour and ate "lunch" at six, then went all the way back to pablo to work for lawrence from 7 to 10:30. no i'm not hungry, no i'm not tired. i'm wired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'll feel the burn tomorrow. i get to work tomorrow too XDI hate school with passion. i fear this one because the place i will be living will be infested with literally thousands of people with not even one room to myself. even that i have to share. sharing BAD!
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Thursday, August 18, 2005 / 7:30 PM
i saw a rainbow sprout up from the pavement in the rearview mirror on the way home.rain is kyewel.
lying in bed around midnight, i feel something crawl over my arm. i thought it was the wind or something, but i turn on the light just to make sure. nope. a freakin huge black spider is on my blanket. i try to catch it but it's too fast. it's hiding somewhere on/under my bed. that's why i couldn't sleep all night.
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005 / 2:39 PM
fancy got adopted today. jen cried. :'( she only has to keep the cone on her head til sunday until where her eye used to be heals. and she's gonna be in the newspaper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't know which one but fancy's gonna be in the newpaper EEEEEEEE!!!3 comments
pain free
Tuesday, August 16, 2005 / 2:44 PM
my earring is officially retired!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D but i'm kind of pissed.4 comments
Monday, August 08, 2005 / 6:03 PM
we did the same thing today except we didn't use the tube. i forgot to mention that denise's and david's family and my gma are here. i really feel the whiplash today. it feels like one of those headaches where the pain shoots down your neck except without the headache. and i can't really turn my head abruptly without a lot of pain. marshall came for awhile but then david scared him away. we went to the brewery and i'm reminded of how much i don't like cream soda. vom.0 comments
Sunday, August 07, 2005 / 7:21 PM
today i learned never to step into a boat with nick behind the wheel. i was in the tube and i saw my life flash before my eyes like 30 times and i couldn't signal to stop because i was holding on for dear life. i admit it was fun at first, but yeah. he did this u turn which made me stop for awhile because the line wasn't taught. i had spun around backwards and then he went full throttle and i got whiplash really bad. it pains me. then he threw me off the tube. it was almost as bad as when i drowned at castle rock, except i actually have physical scars from that. i was choking up water for like 5 minutes and then nick swings by and he's like 'oh sorry, was i going to rough?' it's like NAAAWWW! after kenneth went the line got stuck in the motor so we could only start one (thank god we had two because nick decided to go 309847 light years from shore) and when we got back everyone was pissed. then my brother couldn't park because it drove lopsided so he started swearing and put the thing full throttle around in circles. all the guys in my family are fucking assholes (except kyle and kenneth!), and that's the only swearing that was actually necessary today. good riddance go away3 comments
Saturday, August 06, 2005 / 9:27 PM
here's some random things i did this week.i heard mostly swearing today because my family went on a "pleasant" old boating trip. wouldn't the world be so much better if everyone were female? there would be a lot less temper tantrums.
i washed my car and my mom's and vacuumed my car.
heard my dad say the f word a lot this morning. a whole lot.
went to eui's. stood around and listened to punk, then techno, then heavy metal, then classical. all while standing around watching the neighbor's grill spew smoke for a long time. then we went swimming and went to the pet store because i want another kuhli loach. but they didn't have any :(. i got one in kalispell a few years ago and he was the coolest fish EVER!! hence, kuhli. nurr. and he lived a really long time. second up to my first pleco. he dug tunnels in the gravel and he had orange and black stripes! want a picture?
EEEEEEEEEE!
then we all came home and eui and em dubbed the first half of metropolis. and nothing else really happened.
there's always one moth in here. one. not two, not three, one. and it's always a different one.
i think i may have figured out the rock opera album, american idiot. yes it has taken me nine months!! it's not just JOS and Homecoming that are the operas, it's all the songs put together that tell the story. though i still haven't figured out the term "underbelly". i think it means the group of...rough people that he knows. you'd have to listen to it to get the personalities of the characters cuz i don't feel like explaining. tracks 1-2-3-4 are just introducing the jesus of suburbia. apparently he's leaving home to at least a slightly slummy part of town. and it's pretty obvious he's against the mindset of america, yes? by tracks 4 and 5 he's feeling pretty alone in this new strange place. but then he meets saint jimmy. a lot like JOS, but more hardcore. they're fast friends. he introduces JOS to drugs in track 7 to keep their minds off the pain. JOS falls in love with whatsername (she's a rebel and extraordinary girl) but they start turning bitter on each other by the middle of extraordinary girl. she can't stand this place anymore and skips town in letterbomb. track 11...in hell, wake him up when september ends. parallel to bj's life because his father died in september. in homecoming (another 5 part song!) saint jimmy commits suicide. east 12th street parallel to bj's having to fill out papers for a dui last year. jos finds a postcard from his friend tunny, similar to tre's life (ha ha.) part five the jesus of suburbia's coming home again. and the last track is self explanatory. i'll never turn back time/forgetting you but not the time. and that's the briefest summary of my favorite cd...
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Thursday, August 04, 2005 / 11:37 PM
i went to roo's to pick up emily and ended up getting cheered up...and we made a video half with us messing with the camera and half of me making a cooking show of me eating an apple. it's better than it sounds.0 comments
/ 7:36 PM
everything has gone wrong that could have possibly gone wrong in the past 24 hours. my only comfort is that my mom would say that it isn't my fault, but i can't be sure because i haven't told anyone what has gone on in my head within the past day or two, and i don't plan on doing so. i'm sorry to everyone i have and haven't come in contact with today. it's a long story.1 comments
Wednesday, August 03, 2005 / 1:14 PM
roo's surgery is today...and we're going to visit her tomorrow. eustacia gets back today or tomorrow i think...sometime...i'm bored.0 comments
Tuesday, August 02, 2005 / 5:41 PM
sometimes it feels like i have to keep people at gunpoint 24/7 just to keep them sober. well i haven't eaten since 9 so good riddance.0 comments
Monday, August 01, 2005 / 11:06 PM
i am completely enraged right...you all should be glad i'm alone...actually i should be bawling my eyes out right now...at least i'm in pain...FUCK0 comments
talk to me only if you aren't an idiot
/ 5:46 PM
i went to missoula...some stuff happened that really pisses me off but otherwise it was fun. i made my ear bleed so the bump is back. nick ran up to me to give me my badminton racket back and hit me in the face with it so i'm bruised now. nick won't quit leaving kelly alone about the breakup which should only be her business. nick keeps talking about what he says marshall said he was going to do for his 18th birthday and that he won't tell me about it because he knows i would say no. and according to me, i wouldn't just say no, i'd probably stay away from him for a long ass time. this is something i DO NOT tolerate. this is how the last relationship ended. i had no idea he still wanted to do this to himself. i don't even fucking care if this is a one time thing. there isn't such a thing. i just hope that isn't true. i feel so deceived. AGAIN! WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG THIS TIME!!?!?!?!on the GOOD side...we went to rattlesnake creek at greenough park and hung out at my grandparents house...it was fuuuun.
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