Friday, March 25, 2005 / 6:11 PM
sitting in a hot stinky pool for six hours makes me tired. we went to quinn hot springs today con los primos. it was funness. there were four smaller pools of varying temperatures on one side and two bigger pools on the other side that were the coldest. they were all connected. tomorrow we go to missoula, and from there to deer lodge prison. i don't know what happens after that, but my mom says to pack a whole week's worth of clothes. wee. i go sleep now. love you marshall, in case i don't see you for awhile.......
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Look, I'm violent!
Thursday, March 24, 2005 / 9:41 PM
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005 / 2:10 PM
I will explode with joy as soon as i graduate from this stupid pointless CRAP
until then i will be all prancey dancey and tolerate all the stupid people and then i will never see any of you AGAIN! unless you are my friend. which you probably are, because you are reading this.
hi!
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Monday, March 21, 2005 / 2:01 PM
i did some really stupid things. last night and today.
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shut
Saturday, March 19, 2005 / 10:59 PM
everyone stop PESTERING me about not talking as much as i used to. it's beyond my control, i try to stop it anyway but it doesn't work. there's nothing in hell i can do! people have tried to help me, but people mostly put me down about it. being helped hurts worse because i can't do it. it humiliates me. this is ALL i can think about anymore. wondering why i'm like this and how to stop it. convincing myself i can do it. my mouth opens, nothing comes out. if something does...it's a bunch of stuttering and/or voice cracking. i don't say what i want to. i don't be myself. i give up. shoot me.
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Friday, March 18, 2005 / 2:53 PM
i'm getting a headache. weather is changing AGAIN. forking barometer.
springtime makes me hypersensitive too. everything is too loud, too bright, too...cold.
complaining done
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satan himself...
Wednesday, March 16, 2005 / 4:13 PM
i swear i got possessed last night in my sleep. you might laugh at me, but this is serious. i'm not even going to talk about what happened in the dreams. yeah...dreamS. i finally woke up after i heard myself whispering things. that's just evil. i was too scared to fall asleep or even move for a long while afterwards. my room haunts me.
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that's extreme
Monday, March 14, 2005 / 5:55 PM
admitted, i am very hard to be figured out. this can be burdenous. this can be fun. overall, i confuse myself all of the time. where is my mind? i don't feel safe anymore when i'm not buried in homework. i feel like i'm forgetting something when that happens. this is how the last three months of school go for me. non-stop paranoia action. help me, i need comments on what famous artist's work to duplicate in my paint-the-chair project next quarter. (see, my mind just circled back to school work...)
highest regards to whoever periodically stops by to read this jumbley stuff.
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slam...slam.......................slam.
Friday, March 11, 2005 / 9:14 PM
FRIDAYS ARE BOOORRRRIIINNNGGGG
I think I'm too attached to Marshall.
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all killer some filler
/ 3:18 PM
a good, productive, ALMOST warm day. it almost smelled like summer when i walked out the door after school. which reminds me i should be using my lamp. too bad it hurts my eyes. my map is done, the scholarship application due tuesday is almost done, i got transcripts in guidance for all i'm applying for, nagged holmes to get my recommendation letter done, worked on my portfolio for an hour after school, and there's a calculus quiz monday that i actually know how to do. now tomorrow...i have to go to the animal shelter so jennifer can show me what she wants done on the website. then i can go pet the kitties. KIITTTTTTTTTTTIIEEEESSSS
I hope i am able to sleep well this weekend. my physical body is dying.
remind me not to eat apples.
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and we become...silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Wednesday, March 09, 2005 / 12:11 PM
yep they did play that song this morning.
i saw the sunset driving home from work yesterday. magenta stripes. lots. reminded me of the fire outlook tower we stayed at last summer. and they just happened to be playing du hast and personal jesus on the radio. no connection really, just came to be the background music. i thought it was fun.
maybe i'll add to this later.
---------adding:-----------
today i realized how blessed i am. at the beginning of this year i kept thinking marshall would be at school. i kept looking for him for some reason. now here he is. i don't think i even fully believe he is, but it's true. i think i might even be taking it for granted. *deleted negative comment here* anyways...i went to the dentist today. and it's pretty much official: i don't have to get my wisdom teeth pulled. all he has to do is put sealant on them before i leave for college.
...ian doesn't like it when i call him mister man.
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just makes me wonder
Tuesday, March 08, 2005 / 2:49 PM
her name is elaine. i've been reading her blog for at least a year and a half now. she was kyle's girlfriend quite a long time ago, but that's how i came in contact with her. nothing on there has been quite as interesting as it is now. i have no idea what she just did, but it was obviously very wrong. http://www.livejournal.com/users/solitagatita/
that's enough gossip for the day.
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Monday, March 07, 2005 / 10:27 PM
today was a REALLY good day.
and I don't know why.
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my mind is fragrant...fragrant mind
/ 3:37 PM
my mind can be my worst enemy sometimes.
sometimes.
hey, last night marshall and i saw this really bright slow moving yellowish light in the sky. a couple minutes later it shut off and turned into a plane. then there was this other one, same color, flashing and moving on the ground way out in the hills. all i have to say about that is...what the hell.
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hell
Sunday, March 06, 2005 / 3:29 PM
i skipped a day of the pill so now the apocalypse had to start today instead of yesterday. that means i have to go through this again tomorrow at school. and THAT means...a second apocalypse. OIASHIOFJSHDA W;FJHAOD GASDF;LKAHDGASIO DNH
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salad spork
Friday, March 04, 2005 / 4:28 PM
today was all moodswingy. i woke up in the worst mood, and that changed from great and back from minute to minute all day. i think i'm ok now. i had to haul siblings back and forth for two hours after school. that made me mad this morning but when it happened i somehow thought of it as all in good fun. i even took emily to super 1 after it was all over and got us all something. emily ate her cake with a SALAD spork. we're going to missoula tomorrow.
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Thursday, March 03, 2005 / 8:21 PM
i was at work for 6 hours after school. at least i got a ton and a half of stuff done. i'm sore for sitting still all day long. goodbyefulnessinged.
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g'day
Wednesday, March 02, 2005 / 4:31 PM
there are purple flowers outside. marshall went walking in the pastures but i couldn't go. i got a letter from lisa today. i solved her riddle so i got a prize. i'm wearing it.
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