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Thursday, September 30, 2004 / 8:34 PM

AAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!!
because I felt like it.
Lunch was interesting. I sat at a table full of freshmen. "what do you think of my brother, dan grief, you know him?" "yeah." "don't you think he's just stupid?" "yep." "what about dusty, isn't he just a fag?" "uh huh." "THANK YOU!!!" I learned how to separate james' finger from my backpack too. coil arm around his wrist, drop sharply to ground, twist HARD. loud scream of pain. I think he likes it. damn sadist. how do you get out of something like this? someone who flirts so physically/annoyingly? it reminds me of billy.
I might have a non-paying job to re-do and update the animal shelter website. yay!

it's like working at a fishmarket...except you don't have to clean and gut fish all day

Wednesday, September 29, 2004 / 9:28 PM

senior picture day...the outside pictures anyway. that really made me tired. i hope they turn out...i heard that devon was in jail. SHAME! yet he's online right now. no, i'm not speaking to him. november, eustacia demands a harry potter marathon and we're all making food for it. tomorrow she'll be at school. umness. i wonder what's up with...THAT.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004 / 9:49 PM

saw fahrenheit 9/11 with shane today. it was interesting...i've heard a lot more radical theories than that, but it was still interesting. who should I vote for? not kerry...maybe bush. nader? well my basic idea is we're all screwed for the next four years...at least. my dad says the art of voting is to go for the lesser of two evils. i still need to register...enough about politics. he almost has the burden off his shoulders. that means i get to go snowboarding with him again. maybe even do the "hey look at the giant snowflake on the windsshhhhhhit hold on guys!" again if clancy decides to drive. actually that wouldn't be good...

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 27, 2004 / 7:00 PM

eustacia doesn't have to be homeschooled anymore! she'll be at school on thursday! no more corvallis! no more cabin! GGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSPPPPPPPPPP

high-fiving myself

/ 2:17 PM

ha! I got a 110% on the zoology test and everyone else failed. o'b congratulated me in class. everyone else has to go retake it on wednesday morning. I can always use some extra sleep...

I saw the little runt sitting there on a log, I asked him his name and in a raspy voice he said...

Sunday, September 26, 2004 / 10:07 PM

YOOOOOOOOODA.
I want to talk to myself some more. Friday Shane told me "I think I've got less than a week left! I pissed her off and she walked away! maybe she'll finally break up with me!" hahaha that's funny. he always tells me stuff like that. he wants to leave her but he won't because he'll feel guilty about it...so he's trying to get chris to break up with him first. I think that's dumb, I broke up with devon and didn't feel a smidgeon of guilt. I was incredibly happy in fact. I don't think I'll ever figure out what goes on in his head...I think she cast an evil spell on his brain...

I met him in a swamp down in dagobah, where it bubbles all the time like a giant carbonated...

/ 9:58 PM

SOOOOOOODA.
I'm getting better really fast for some cool reason. I helped make a bunch of apple pies today. and that's about...all...worth...noting...except for...YOU

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Saturday, September 25, 2004 / 10:37 PM

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone, I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the borderline of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone, I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

-GD

lalalalalalalalalala

/ 10:22 PM

I own all the green day cd's once more! I RULE YOU ALL.

*sneezes* bleeehhhh....

angry about the thing i never talk about

/ 7:05 PM

i got a cold. go me. i tried to sleep all day. instead i hallucinated. and I got a letter from my old friend jeanette today. she's joining the air force after she graduates...

Friday, September 24, 2004 / 5:16 PM

i stuck in one of the clips from the concert for my audio file thing in my profile...mwahaha...go listen to it. his guitarist is kickass.

Weird Al touched me!!!

Wednesday, September 22, 2004 / 1:07 PM

I went to his concert last night, and when he was singing the "I would rather __ than spend another minute with you" song, he went out into the audience...and at the part where he sings "I'd rather rip out my intestines with a fork..." he whipped out a fork from his jacket, he was right next to me, then he leapt up to my face and put his scarf around my neck!! after he wiped his face with it. it's my souvenir. a scarf with Weird Al snoz! i took a roll of film and recorded clips until i got caught...stinky security.
it was sooooooo cooooooooool. but first eustacia made us face the horror of FORGETTING OUR TICKETS IN THE BACK OF ROY'S TRUCK. by some odd miracle, he just happened to be having it fixed in east missoula that day. somehow it all worked out. we all finally got there ten minutes before it started.

after the show we were talking to a couple of guys from hamilton while shane and them bought overpriced crap. they were just as obsessed as we are. XD

Sunday, September 19, 2004 / 2:40 PM

media player 10 is dumb. nifty...but dumb. i guess i'll just have to get used to it. yeah, sundays are boring. hmm...i talked to shane on msn last night til about 2. he and levi and chris are going to carpool with us to the weird al concert. james can't go because his mom jipped him. they'll be meeting eustacia though. she's meeting us in missoula. we're going to a restaurant first. i think i'm going to have a great time making chris envy me even more. i think it's just so...entertaining. i'm bad.

what am i going to wear?! :O

Saturday, September 18, 2004 / 9:47 PM

this one time a couple years ago, clancy brought us to this old well thing...it was some big holding tank or something and it wasn't being used anymore. it was close to the cemetery somewhere. we climbed down into it, 10-15 feet, and it was all mossy green at the bottom. i wish i knew exactly where so that i could go back. he used to take me to all these really cool places that no one else knows about...old cabins and his grandma's place by the lake and camping under the stars at buffalo bridge and offroading through miles of mudholes just to get there. we also went on a bunch of backroads by my house. we found a marsh. and a dam. and there was a white trash bag floating against it...wrapped tightly over a furry animal. that was CREEPY.

/ 5:32 PM

a fun day full of searching for somewhere to take senior pictures. i climbed lots of wet slimy trees...a few more wet hills...sat on soggy benches and tree limbs...my pants and hands are green from all the moss stuff. i smell funny too. ummmmmmmmmmm...i don't know.

Friday, September 17, 2004 / 11:53 PM

my cat's an ass. she jumped on me, tripped over my headphone wires, inflicted a few deep cuts into my hand by stepping on it when tripping, finally managed to pull my headphones off, tripped around my legs some more, then jumped off.

i hate my blog

Thursday, September 16, 2004 / 8:02 PM

no sleep for me. no one will shut up! i was lying there for three @#$* hours! my head hurts. pain killers don't work anymore.

/ 3:16 PM

I just realized something. there is no school tomorrow! I was doing my homework and everything! silly me. I sleep now. oh, and check out the toads who hung out at my house this summer: here!

Wednesday, September 15, 2004 / 2:46 PM

nothing to vent, note, quote, or report. nada. zilchies. boring. maybe this means something horrible is about to happen. quiet before the storm. gurgle.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004 / 5:55 PM

cole asked me to prom today. i don't want to gooooooooooooooooooooo

Monday, September 13, 2004 / 3:28 PM

my grandparents came over yesterday and gave me this cool asian teapot and vase. I had my worst nightmare a couple nights ago...evil! my pink pastel exploded in art class today. james and I walked into the library during lunch and found shane and karen there. shane must really think we're annoying now. he seemed to have a yeah whatever attitude no matter what we told him. karen didn't even seem to notice we were there. I was also trying to talk to mrs. simpson in the hall and james wouldn't LET GO OF MY HAND!!! everyone is annoying, and i am joyous. yeah, really.

Saturday, September 11, 2004 / 10:28 PM

happy day. we received a whopping two guests to our party. funness. annoying at times, yes, but oh well. the greatest thing was that my brother was at canyon's house the whole time. there was a big american flag hung from a crane over the interstate next to the bank today. james decided that it eats people. the food was frybread and crumb/pudding/chocolate chip/whip cream cakes. my rundown of gifts: a trenchcoat from marshall (i opened that on wednesday though), an sd card and a watch and 4 volumes of azumanga daioh from my parents, a candle from roo, bracelets from james, another bracelet from my aunt and a card, and more cards from denise, grandma, diane and eustacia. emily got a digital camera and invader zim volume 2 and ghost books from my parents, a stuffed kitty from james, a necklace from my aunt, and a video game from roo. the rest of the day was spent being pulled water ski style by james on the wood floor and watching zim. and fighting and wrestling james. and roo tickling me...NOOOOO

Friday, September 10, 2004 / 2:43 PM

this week has been captured and burned at the stake. I am so happy. here's to a nice can of hansen's raspberry soda. ryo-ohki sits on top of this monitor as usual. I never seem to notice it there. my shirt has bat wings. it is so cool. the junk mail gave me a paper cut when i was looking through it. I got this blank red plastic marker thing in the mail too. I think it belongs to the mailman.
...I'm bored.

kill it

Wednesday, September 08, 2004 / 10:50 PM

getting two hours of sleep within the past 72 hours, not good. I went to bed at 10:30 and everything. I can only describe it as a splitting headache with plenty of vertigo and more than a hint of thoughtnumbingness. yeah, it's so bad that I have to make up my own words. I fear I've ruined it all by catching another two instead of attending my own family birthday party. I even missed my own birthday cake.

I'm not very happy today...

it's all so aggravating.

/ 1:56 PM

lesson of the day: espionage is overrided by surveillance. james and I did something bad. I wouldn't say we're in deep shit yet, but we're in considerable trouble. it involves pistachios.

Tuesday, September 07, 2004 / 6:02 PM

things are looking up, I think. looking at colleges and stuff. it's not quite so overwhelming anymore. I think I know the roundabouts of what I want to do. It makes me feel so much better. I was so happy today that I decided to go to the job service to get an application. I filled it all out too. the art institute called me today because I filled out this interview on their website and said I was interested in their industrial design program. they also offer a japanese and a philosophy class. happy.
my dad bought me a 1 gig sd card for my birthday. that size just came out on the 30th. that's gonna be fun.
and when I was messing around in the kitchen gizmo walked up on the deck and dropped one of those big hungarian chicken things in front of the glass door. I was really surprised that she was able to actually catch one of those things. Em brought in the dog so she wouldn't try to kill it any more. I picked it up and it seemed to be fully intact, just in a lot of shock. so I took it out into the field, and as soon as I put it down it ran away really fast for about six feet and then just sat there under a bush. I guess it's okay. unless giz gets a hold of it again.

Sunday, September 05, 2004 / 10:07 PM

...I think I stalk people too much.
It has become my life.
So if you always seem to see me out of the corner of your eye, or you suddenly see the counter on your website is rising drastically, you will know that it isn't a coincidence. sad but true.
I'm only stalking one person at school (so far) this year. the main person I was stalking moved away. hint: it wasn't you, lisa. I only stalked you on the internet all along. mwahaha.
I wonder if anyone stalks me right now. it would only be karmically fair. there was definitely one guy, I knew he stalked me even before I knew his name was *DAN* ahem. there was also this ass shane lawrence. kayla meisenheimer told me all about his fantasies about me when we were running the mile one day. so lovely.

I believe I know all too well how the human mind works. it annoys me how people do things thinking that no one will notice. examples undisclosed. and other things.

/ 4:42 PM

I almost forgot that it's a 3-day weekend. how great. it's so nice to be able to talk to myself on this thing. sigh. well I did talk to another living life form today, and it was eustacia. she said that weird al's gonna be in missoula this month. maybe we can go.

Friday, September 03, 2004 / 2:06 PM

our birthday party will be on 9/11. how cool is that? on the contrary, my brother lost my headphone adapter for my amp. I am pissed. I found it on the steps of the high school a couple years ago, and I couldn't quite figure out what it was for awhile, other than it plugged into an amp. it was way cool. but now it's all GONE. quote of the day: "in the land of eyeball stew, the man with ten eyes is always king." - james

Thursday, September 02, 2004 / 6:23 PM

people always want to know how my day went. it was plain. my dad wants me to think that school is exciting. ugh. but let's forget that. i've come to think that mr. o'brien's room is my home-room, just because it's become so familiar to me. biology, astronomy, geology, standing there with shane watching skippy on deviantart and neopets, and once in a while passing a note or two, billy showing me flcl wallpapers and throwing pens at each other, brain busters, knowledge masters, and now it's zoology. that is the vague version of my history in mr. o'brien's room. things in there remind me of my past feelings. they are bad, bad. why am i having emotional connections with school? run away!!!! i keep smelling something odd, like a person, but it's not me. i think there is a ghost stalking me.

arm wrestling for dweebs

Wednesday, September 01, 2004 / 2:34 PM

thumb wrestling, the quality three-man guillotine, tic tac toe cheating, onomonopeia miniscule hang man. what would you do if humanity toppled over on itself? I would do a dance. what about turning all the watersources into pouring blood? oh yes, that too...that's why I would be dancing. if any rodent could live in your brain, which would you choose? a shrew. ah yes, excellent choice. don't smoke while drinking bourbon or you will become a blowtorch in reverse.