Saturday, July 03, 2004 / 1:31 AM
I just don't know. it's really hard to type something after that, but here goes. the past two days have been pretty close to heaven, but today just got me thinking about my future. Marshall seems to know exactly what his thing is...i think i've lost all my "things"...damn it...i would love to study philosophy and art in college, but where would that ever take me? the tarot lady told me to just wait, because what is planned for my future can't be revealed until i feel worthy of it. that oughtta be a long ass time from now, because all i do is hate myself for not being able to figure out where i'm going or what i'm doing. today my mom got mad at me for being out with marshall til 3 last night. after he left, around 10 tonight, all us cousins loaded into the car to go bowling, but they said it would be 72 bucks just cuz it's friday night..screw that..so we went to hong kong harry's for the second time today and bought a bunch of bottle rockets, we decided not to tell my mom about it...then got a cheese pizza and a pepsi 2liter at pizza hut and took it to riverside...it was pretty funny, because we were talking about what a random bunch of kids we are, and how we always act so crazy around each other...it's probably pretty suspicious seeing us all driving around at 11 at night with the stereo all the way up, and staggering around laughing. and yesterday, i found a note on a kleenex in my car from devon, saying to call him whenever i get the chance because "we need to talk." I still haven't called him. i wonder what it is we need to talk about...and i remember last summer when shane and i were friends...i shot like 50 bottle rockets at him with a coke bottle, and he's out in the field with the baseball bat, fending them all off. a spark from one of them burned me pretty good, I probably still have the scar on my wrist..good times.
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