Friday, April 29, 2005 / 5:04 PM
this isn't exactly me but oh well...
You are sad because of your grief
Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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/ 2:29 PM
i woke up this morning (that's right, i slept well for the first time in three weeks!!) and felt so much better! i think i'll be unsick tomorrow. yesterday at instyprints this lady walked up to me and asked where i was going to college (my mom and i were working on my graduation announcements) and then asked "you're studying art, right?" isn't that weird? how can someone know that just by looking at me?1 comments
part twelve million
Thursday, April 28, 2005 / 2:02 PM
"yeah ok, and one more thing i dont think i can ever see you me and shane ever being frinds again i guess that will be a dream to you forever!!"so she basically said sorry just as an excuse to make herself feel superior to me. allllllllrighty then. so then i said...
"okay, now you're just being silly. originally you were saying sorry trying to make up to me, now you're taking it back. i don't want you to feel sorry for me, but i'm not here to pity you either. don't email me unless you need to make a point with me, not to try to take some sort of revenge on me. we both know what happened. and it isn't even really my fault. i never "liked" shane like that, i've always thought of him as a big brother. he told me himself he was a "testerone-driven pig" after awhile and that he did like me like that. that was as far as it went. i blame him more than you because he couldn't get his priorities straight and ended up hurting us both. hmm well that's all i can think of right now that might help...bai bai"
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i feel loved
Wednesday, April 27, 2005 / 10:13 PM
okay, get ready to laugh. this is from christina. I gave her the smackdown in my last email.--------------------
hey you made my life shitty to ok quit being the only vicum ok its hard to find out that someones telling someone else that they love you and someone else and just to say i still hate you for all of this shit!!!!!!
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*vent!*
Tuesday, April 26, 2005 / 6:19 PM
LEAVE ME ALONE WITH THAT STUPID EMAIL!I'VE HAD IT EMAILED TO ME THREE TIMES NOW AND IT'S ON SOMEONE'S BLOG!IT'S NOT THAT SURPRISING, OKAY?!?!if you want school to be so damn religious, why don't you just go to a freaking christian school?everyone wants something to blame for their messed up kids.i'm tired of all the bitching.teach your children something new.2 comments
yay for mucus
/ 2:49 PM
well, i'm considerably sick. the last time i was considerably sick was april-may of my sophomore year when i had mono, but that was ten times worse. all the lymph nodes, tonsils and whatnot, on the right side were still swollen even six months after that. and i didn't miss a single day of school. that was the only time i've ever fallen asleep at school. that's pretty much all i was able to do. all my grades dropped. that was on the right side of my body. it's weird. whenever i've gotten sick within the last few years, it's only on one side. this one decided to be on the left. i tired...but i have to study...1 comments
Sunday, April 24, 2005 / 11:27 AM
now christina's all mad that i didn't answer her email and to please give her some feedback. i already did! what does she want me to do, forgive her some more? YOU MADE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL.3 comments
*intermission*
Friday, April 22, 2005 / 10:55 PM
i'm playing easy skanking over and over again...i'm not a sicko...it's just funny...and i like it.my roommate's email is girl_ov_doom. i get the feeling we're going to get along. :) my room is #322 in craig hall, come visit me sometime. i move in in 4 months and 4 days...
my throat's all huge on one side...
i dreamt i was swimming with dolphins. it was truly amazing. i was really there.
greenough park is one of my favorite places. back in year 2000, during that really good fire season (yes, GOOD), we decided to go there because we were tired of locking ourselves in the house all day because momma didn't want us breathing the smoke. (this was before we moved to montana. we usually stayed at my grandparents' house for a month out of summer vacation.) we waded in the creek. the sun was reddish orange, the smoke was so thick you could barely see the trees on the other side. ash and charred pine needles rained from the sky. and my mom thought it was crazy how many black twigs and needles she found in my hair afterwards.
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tgif
/ 2:06 PM
my left tonsil is all swollen and it hurts. i feel sicky. time for my fifth nap this week...0 comments
i've gone corporate!
Thursday, April 21, 2005 / 2:50 PM
and i think i might have three different jobs at the same time now. i went in for an interview at wheat montana/starbucks today. i'm probably hired but he'll let me know for sure on tuesday. i heard that jamie poukish and somebody else applied there too...dookie. but umm...don't shoot me because i work for a corporate logo! i like coffee! and i can transfer to missoula next year because there's one there too. but we'll see on tuesday. i need college money because all the scholarship people hate me. i feel so shafted.5 comments
Wednesday, April 20, 2005 / 7:24 PM
the wailers concert is tonight and I can't go.0 comments
/ 2:40 PM
life would be so much better if i weren't so god damn tired all the time. i attempt to sleep from 10:30 to 7 every night, but i never do.2 comments
hmm...
Monday, April 18, 2005 / 10:22 PM
well my dad just had about 50 cows over the ring marshall gave me. it's like he thinks we're getting married tomorrow morning or something. don't count on it.4 comments
/ 3:12 PM
they say brandy's on pills and meth now. sorry but i still care about her, she's family, she was the one who helped me through freshman year. people are stupid a lot. sigh. not my problem. i dare not go back. guten tag2 comments
I'm an RV!
Saturday, April 16, 2005 / 9:51 PM
well might as well post here again since i got a different blog and i've been posting there instead...yarr...well today wasn't so bad at all...today was the anime fest and it was just as i expected...just a bunch of anime watching and muse comics and that drawing contest and little kids everywhere...but oh well. we went to the hiyao miyazaki room and watched porco rosso...then watched cowboy bebop the movie (fifth time for me, damn)...and then...wandered around doing nothing. then i took roo home...then it took us ten minutes to figure out what cd to listen to next...then dropped off eustacia and went home the end. and since today is the one year mark for marshall and i, we went out to eat at the hot spot. i was supposed to meet him at insty prints, and while i was waiting I saw kelly and ian walk/skate by. at first i was like WTF?!?! but then i remembered kelly was coming up for the weekend. should have said hi but i was too exhausted to yell. oh well i'm saying hi now. HI!christina just told me she's sorry for making shane and i stop being friends...wow. i really have to fight to keep that one down.
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005 / 6:55 PM
i feel like killing myself. i can't do something so simple. i make it so hard. the eyes are so piercing. too conscious of myself. we get more distant by the day. it's all my fault. soon i'll be gonei just want to start over
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Sunday, April 10, 2005 / 11:20 AM
hooee, that was just so incredibly fun.for my mother.
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pain...and painless
Friday, April 08, 2005 / 10:13 PM
you have to admit. everything's great. except for the headache. ow.tomorrow is prom. i'm not going to be pessimistic, I promise. but why does it have to be so loud...it gives me a headache.
half of my calculus class has gotten scholarships. two of them are full. vicious spite jig to that. 3.8 gpa just isn't good enough.
MSN 7 is cool.
canyon and nick are back...must disappear now
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the world may never know
Thursday, April 07, 2005 / 4:28 PM
LaCeY V. says:I don't like it there
ow says:
where
LaCeY V. says:
under there
ow says:
um...i'm confused
LaCeY V. says:
then let's go to wal*mart
LaCeY V. says:
who is this again
ow says:
clarissa
LaCeY V. says:
oh
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005 / 6:10 PM
it's been a long day. i couldn't do what i needed to do this morning because somebody was late getting into the car. now i don't know when i'll get time to do it. maybe tomorrow. lunch there was an anime meeting. i get to help euie and keegan with posters and crap. 3:30 i got my snow tires changed. i messed around in town til then. saw dan once. saw james euie and roo once. and i could almost swear i saw shane, but i didn't see his face. he was on main street walking around a house. i think people stare at me a lot. there's this one girl in forensics...grr.2 comments
damn
/ 6:06 PM
I have been peer pressured. oh well. you're supposed to answer it in my comments.What would you do if:
I cried:
I commit suicide:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I died:
I was afraid:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I were hospitalized:
I ran away:
I got in a fight and you were there:
Would You?...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, No matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash If i needed it:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me for who I am:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Are we close?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable?
[18] How long have you known me?
[19] Describe me in one word:
[20] What was your first impression?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now?
[22] What do you think my weakness is?
[23] Do you think I'll get married?
[24] What about me makes you happy?
[25] What about me makes you sad?
[26] What reminds you of me?
[27] What's something you would change about me?
[28] How well do you know me?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30] Do you think I would kill someone?
[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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blahblog
Tuesday, April 05, 2005 / 3:15 PM
I was just reading some of my really old posts. they're pretty funny. especially my bitchy ones. I'm so glad I don't come in contact with those people anymore. i suppose it was beneficial to my health to be exposed to that. now I know it'll never happen again. some people really suck. and I realize my blog is almost a year old now. I wish I could still write posts like that, but I can't tell what my feelings are anymore. And I don't have much to bitch about anymore either, other than my same old "I hate myself" speeches. I have a blah blog.4 comments
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/ 3:08 PM
ashley and amy put tyler's hair in pigtails in painting class all the time and then cackle at it for the entire period. it's so stupid! it's so stupid it's funny!!! goodbye.0 comments
Please excuse the stuff that was transcribed weird.
Monday, April 04, 2005 / 2:06 PM
(Note: if you add "nick is annoying" every other sentence, you might begin to understand what our family vacations are like.)
Monday
We got here a couple days ago and hung out at the halfpipe above elements skate shop and watched Kelly and Kyle skate cu2 we suck. Kenneth nick and I tried dropping into the little part though. That was a failure. Then we went to the mall. Then we went to their house to watch horror flicks. Yesterday was easter. Not much happened other than we ate a big lunch and watched the incredibIes. It actually wasn't too bad. I went out walking in the rain too. Now we're on I90 to deer lodge. Bye bye now, more later.
Tuesday
Deer Lodge was cold...but interesting. There was nothing else to do there so we went on to Butte and checked into Copper Kings Mansion, formerly owned by senator W. A. Clark and now used for a bed and breakfast. We got to eat at a Chinese restaurant (woo!) and the guy who owned it played nothing but classic rock and Tool. It was funny. Then he gave me a little goldfish pendant. It's so cool! After that we burned time at a little mall and ate ice cream at McDonalds.The next morning we ate french toast and got a tour of the mansion. Pretty impressive place. I liked his appreciation for art. After checking out, we went to the mineral museum at MT Tech. Then we went into this big old bead shop. It wasn't as hippie as the one in Oregon but I found some cool ones to go with the fish pendant. And then we went to Fairmont hot springs for a few hours. Everything else was closed for the season so now we're on the way back to Missoula.
Wednesday
Huge freaKin' shopping spree.
Saturday
The campus tour was yesterday. I sure hope next year won't be retarded. I Know that the not seeing Marshall as much as I would like to thing will be, because I'm going to want to every waking and sleeping moment. That psychological need is going to be an inconvenience. At least I'll have family to visit. The dorms might suck. They say Craig hall has the largest rooms, but I looked in one and they're damn small. I wouldn't mind if it were just me, but I'm going to have to live with someone I've never even met before. Another thing to complain about is that there are only 2 showers per floor. And I would say there are at least two hundred people per floor. Same situation goes for laundry. there were like four washers for the entire complex. And there are no candles or incense allowed because it's a fire hazard! I'm gonna EXPLODE! But the fire marshal wouldn't like explosions very much either would he. Most everything else should be cool. Like we can raise our beds to the ceiling. Woo! And the lunch room has everything you can imagine in it, including CEREAL! More woo! And then I got a headache so I couldn't do much but lay down until 11 the next morning when it finally went away. God damn it, prom is next Saturday and I have to go. F word. :c they don't have prom in college, do they... :)
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countdown
Saturday, April 02, 2005 / 12:56 PM
10 Random Things I Like![10] noodles
[9] incense
[8] ocean
[7] hot springs
[6] music
[5] rain
[4] sleep
[3] trees
[2] fish (not food)
[1] night
9 Of Your Closest Friends
[9] eustacia
[8] roo
[7] emily
[6] james
[5] jeanette
[4] sari
[3] marshall
[2] cousins
[1] shane
8 Things You Don't Like
[8] the male species
[7] nick (he is his own species)
[6] stoners
[5] drunks
[4] dumbasses
[3] meat
[2] school
[1] tv
7 Places You Would Like To Visit
[7] japan
[6] china
[5] costa rica
[4] carribbean
[3] europe in general
[2] hawaii
[1] beach...
6 Places Where You've Slept Before
[6] in my bed
[5] in marshall's bed
[4] in grass
[3] on couch outside
[2] in car
[1] trampoline
5 Foods You Like
[5] chinese food
[4] noodles
[3] noodles
[2] noodles
[1] soup!
4 Things You Wanna Do Before You Die
[4] you got me.
[3]
[2]
[1]
3 People You Wanna Meet Before You Die
[3] i'm scared of people
[2]
[1]
2 Events You Will Never Forget
[2] when i was saved by an invisible thing
[1] i forgot
The 1 Person You Will Always Love
[1] guess
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and i'll tell about my vacation as soon as i pull it off my ppc. bye bye
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